Thursday, September 2, 2010

Single Dad

Let the story below leads you the ways on what you have and this is…

A story worth sharing

There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work. Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.

With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bedsheet and blanket!

Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short explanation:

"Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But I remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around, hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles. One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till you return. But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."


At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy.

A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up.

However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time, his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain. But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....

Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept to himself and stayed in his room to practice his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too!

Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It was raining seasons. Every time the raining seasons came, frantic shoppers will try to get some shelters at any available stores....but alas, my son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the postmaster was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, ' I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year.

His answer, amidst his sobbing, was: The letters were for Mummy.

My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: " But why did u post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."


After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say....

I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldn’t help opening the letter before they turn to ash.

And one of the letters broke my heart....

Dear Mummy,

I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldn’t help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why haven’t you appear?


After reading the letter, I can’t stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind....

For the married men:

Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.

Try thinking this way; are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable.

Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.


For those singles out there:

Beauty lies in loving yourself first.
With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.
(Not my original story. Story taken from an email circulated)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Jika anda bertanya...

KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU DIUJI?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami
telah beriman," ("I am full of faith to Allah") sedangkan mereka tidak
diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka
sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia
mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3





KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh
jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah
mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216





KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan
kesanggupannya."
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286





KITA BERTANYA : KENAPA RASA FRUST?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal
kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139





KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala
kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan
kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan
perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah
sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada
Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."





KITA BERTANYA : BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan
sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada
orang-orang yang khusyuk"
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45




KITA BERTANYA : APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka
dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ?
- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111





KITA BERTANYA : KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?

QURAN MENJAWAB
"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya
aku bertawakkal."
- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129




KITA BERKATA : AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!

QURAN MENJAWAB
"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada
berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."
- Surah Yusuf ayat 12



Terasa amat kerdil apabila membaca sendiri warkah ini...segala alasan dalam lintasan hati dalam menempuh kehidupan telah terjawab dan pendoman hidup diberikan oleh Allah SWT...Namum Ohalf masih lagi gagal dalam kehidupan...

Ya Allah sekiranya aku gagal dalam kehidupan fana ini...bimbinglah hatiku agar kembali dekat dan sayang pada mu...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak buat semua umat Islam dan
Selamat menjalankan Ibadah Puasa.



Alhamdulilah,

kita bertemu kembali Ramadhan tahun ini dan

semoga Ramadhan tahun ini, kita benar2 menhayati keindahannya dengan memuji kebesaran Allah SWT memohon kemaafan dunia dan

akhirat buat diri, orang tersayang serta umat Islam sekelian.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Enjoy what you are doing

Enjoy what you are doing.

If you’re not enjoying yourself, then ask yourself what are you doing?


Speak up and show your affectionate in what you do, why hide them? Some people out there are skeptical or some extend frightened to say out their enjoyment simply because of shy or afraid of being label as a gig.


In work, there is no shame in saying you enjoy your work. There seems to be some kudos in being miserable at work, in feeling down about your situation. This is compounded when office pecking where people try to outdo each other in moaning about how they hate their work. Should you be in their shoes when you in the opposite spirits?

Once you acknowledge that work is fun, lift up the spirit, you will find your steps lighten, your stress level decrease and your whole demeanors lightens.

Same goes to your love relationship with your love ones…cuddle them with love and make them feel appreciated that they are in love with the right person. The degree of love can depreciate in time if left unnoticed or if it’s just a routine way of “doing things”. You do not have to be a sex therapist but experiences can guide you to be aware of signs from your partner :o)


Put a smile to your words and the world will smile at you unconditionally

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Antara Cinta, Jujur dan Kepalsuan

Dalam Ohalf mendalami kehidupan berkasih sayang, Ohalf terfikir sejenak pengalaman lama.


Cinta, satu perasaan kasih sayang yang merangkumi jiwa naluri seseorang, Cinta bukan semata mata hanya tertahluk sesama mahluk malahan hakikat cinta agung pada Maha Pencinta itulah kesudahan sebenarnya walaupun cinta sedemikian, Ohalf sebagai hamba sering leka dan lupa.

Jujur, adalah hakikat sebenar hati atas satu perbuatan atau perasaan seseorang…sering terdengar ungkapan “jujurlah pada diri sendiri” namum bagi Ohalf ungkapan sedemikian ada buruknya. Maksud Ohalf apabila dikatakan sedemikian adakah untuk menerima kelemahan pada diri ini tampa ingin berubah iaitu hanya dengan jujur pada diri sendiri…maksud Ohalf mungkin terlaluan apabila seseorang mempunyai naluri berbeza sering menjelaskan unggapan sedemikian untuk menyedarkan hakikat diri, namum jujur pada diri sendiri bukan untuk menerima kelemahan diri tetapi lebih pada jujur kerana ada mempunyai kekuatan yang dianugerahkan untuk berubah.


Kepalsuan, adalah perbuatan mengaburi daripada hakikat sebenar…mungkin kejayaan ini seketika dalam melayari kepalsuan untuk kehidupan sebenarnya yang pasti memakan diri sendiri. Ohalf sendiri akui lemah dalam hal ini kerana mengamalkan kepalsuan dalam hidup.
Antara antara jujur dan kepalsuan wujud berbeza walapun dalam kehidupan ianya sering berjalan seiringan.


Dimana dan bagaimana luahan rasa Cinta, Jujur dan Kepalsuan pada seseorang hanya tertakluk pada kehidupan itu sendiri, adakala kita berperasaan Cinta dan Jujur dalan hati namum wujud Kepalsuan pada diri dalam mencerminkan kebenaran dalam menerima hakikat…fikirkan dan renungkan kerana Ohalf hanya mampu mencoretkan dan kelemahan ini ada pada diri Ohalf dan yang Baik dan yang Benar hanya dari Allah SWT.